We can use our hands to count the days left in 2011. Had been wondering how have I performed this year. My studies,basketball and more.

Conclusion: Realizing I hadn't put in my best for all my things and I except myself to get good results.

Sometimes I only know how to admire people good things and never ask myself why I am not like them. Had been getting things I want easily and never really fight for it. Only now,I start to panic,I start to work hard but is it too late? Others keep saying it is never too late to start but do I have enough time to get what I want? Hmm..

Decided to go sec5 to take my Os. I really afraid I will get F9 for my English. Friends keep saying I can make it but now things change isn't it? It is no longer N level but Os. Imagine you have to start everything from the basic and take the papers in few months time? I really hope I can make it/:

Had friendly match with Ngee Ann Sec today. We won but I don't think I played well today. Despite my mind say jiayou and don't give up,my body had stopped for awhile. I COULD HAVE do better but I didn't. Nz coming in 3weeks and base on my performances recently,I doubt I will get into it. Had told some to think positive and work hard to prove Pjl that you are qualify into it. Why can't I tell this myself too? Why can't I be strong and positive enough to overcome my negative thoughts??

Am I excepting too much from myself?