Had a talk with pjl this afternoon.

I feel so guity and sorry.

Sorry for having such bad attitude,sorry for not cherishing the chance you gave me again and again,sorry for not putting my best when we are having the training and also, the team):

Went to see their blog just now.

I realized how badly all of us want to get into school team and fight together to win the championship. How badly all of us want to perform well and win every match we had played. How badly all of us want to get into court and do well. The feeling of how demoralizing you are when you sit on the bench hoping that coach would put you down on court. Also, the feeling of how demoralizing you are when you had played badly for a match.

I was totally ____ when i thought i am not selected into the school team. Imagine you could feel your heart had stopped beating,your face was totally blank,you are totally speechless and the sudden sadness you had. I just couldn't describe it. Initially she want to reconsider of having me in the school team due to my deteriorating performance and attitude but i am so thankful that she gave me another chance to prove myself. Also, she told me i may not get to play (sort of main 5) and told me all my weaknesses. I think she know how badly i want to play inside the court and hate the feeling of being a bench player. She also told me the reasons why i may not get to play. My dribbling is not good, i am not a good controller, my running is very slow, my shooting is not the best in the team, my 3 pointer sucks,i give up easily and the most important thing is i get piss off easily.

Seriously,time is running fast. Next year is the last year i will be playing as a yishun town player. I want to get rid my weaknesses and improve myself. I need to run fast so that i can do lots of fast break. I want to improve my dribbling so that i can be a good controller and get pass opponents and doing set play for the team. I want to improve my shootings so that i can shoot in the ball when i receive it. I want to control my temper so that i won't get piss off easily and give up. I want to change my mind set from "body control mind" to "mind control body". I need to improve my stamina so that i won't miss my opponents when i am defending. 光说没用。So, i must improve myself so that i can be strong.

I may not be the strongest and fastest, but i can work hard to be strong and fast.

Finally, i got to know the reasons why pjl chose me as v.c. i'm so happy that she gave me a chance to be a v.c as she is reconsidering of changing me. I may not be a good v.c but i will definitely do my best to become one.

I believe no matter what, all of us have the same aim. All of us want to get the gold medal and do the school proud. All of us want to go overseas and get into national. So, jiayou!